Im so hyperfixated on Club Penguin right now that im completely ignoring Rayman.

Rayman was my entier personality for most of my high school career, and now im left with clun penguin. I will still talk about it and make pages about it but im focused on club penguin. Theres a lot of things i wanna write about it, along with Rayman.. so l’ll try to have a balance.

Its near the end of November as i am writing this, and my mom started to buy presents in October.

“But Edge,” You might ask.. “Why is your mom buying presents in October?”

Well my family adores Christmas and other holidays that involve eating and giving. I believe the reason for this is due to my late Great Great Grandfather Emile, who was a WW2 vet who loved the holidays. I heard stories where he’d patiently wait for kids to stop showing up at his house for candy, and then put up the tree. Even after his wife died, for the last years of his life he would do it for his great grand children. I wish i got to meet him, rest in peace. (1910-1998)

My mom has always been like this, from as far back as i can remember. Back when Rainbow Rocks came out, she had bought the dolls the day they became available at our local Walmart. I’m not sure how she kept track of it, exactly. My mom is a women of many talents.

Now its been.. 12 years since that Christmas of 2013. Im not even in my 20s and yet i still feel old! Wow!

Anywho… heres my 2025 Christmas wants!

MY BIG GIFT!

My mom has a tradition of getting us a bunch of small gifts and one HUGE gift. This year i asked for a cricut iron.

A strange gift, yes. I also dont have a cricut machine, so whats the deal?

Well i heard from one of my favorite kandi creators, Mood Kandi, that they recommend a Cricut iron for perlers. Its more efficient than with an iron. Which i think is a fantastic idea! So i asked for it!

My mom has already bought my Christmas gift and im almost CERTAIN that what it is.

Baby Evie Peppa Pig Doll

… I like her. I saw the toy in the store and lost my mind. Shes so cute its crazy.

idk.

Thats basically it. I dont want much, as i want my mom to think ideas for christmas gifts.

Hello hello.

I have been absent for about a week, and i apologize for the absence.

In reality, i have been recovering post suicide attempt.

To explain, i had taken an entire bottle of kids chewable advil. The thing i did wasnt posion to me, as i am 5,9 and nearly 17 years old. I had done many research on overdosing on advil.. but turns out kids advil is less effective. So it didnt do much, but the stress caused me to kick start my period.

I am also suffering from a pretty bad cold. i am not sure if the advil had anything with it, or the stress caused it. I dont want symptathy, i just want to explain why i wasnt there. Updates will be every thursday now. see you all later!

Autism spectrum disorder is a condition related to brain development that affects how people see others and socialize with them. This causes problems in communication and getting along with others socially. The condition also includes limited and repeated patterns of behavior. The term “spectrum” in autism spectrum disorder refers to the wide range of symptoms and the severity of these symptoms.
- Mayo clinic

I am part of the autism spectrum, i feel like that its pretty obvious to everyone who reads this website beyond the front page can tell that i am. I talk a lot about my special interests, and i tend to repeat sentences over and over again.

As of late, i have watched a lot of videos on Lolcows from the 2000s and 2010s, and a lot of them are autistic, or i sense they might be.

I watched this video by MagicMush about DeviantArt oddies, and the 3rd person mentioned was an autistic man whose user name is MollyHaleIsMyFriend. He mostly makes colleges like this:

I then looked at the side of this post, and theres about 10 colleges like it:

Now this isn’t a situation like JustinRPG, whose colleges were mostly fetish things. Magicmush pointed out how he seems to be stuck somewhere in his childhood. All the characters he has in his colleges are from his childhood in the 80s and 90s, and Mush pointed out how that his parents probably didn’t know how to deal with an autistic child in the 80s and 90s, and so let him just do whatever.

MollyHaleIsMyFriend’s case is very interesting to me, when he is accused of being a creep he seemingly has a meltdown online, and counties to repeat phrases over and over. His art is repetitive, there’s no doubt, but it makes him happy. I don’t see the harm and the need to harass him is unnecessary.

Now why do i bring him up?

Well, he is a good example of how lower functioning autistics tend to do things like this. I am also lower functioning, and we often get made fun of for our repetitiveness or interests for random things.

My own example is mentioning Rayman is my husband over and over again. To the point i have made people uncomfortable from mentioning over and over again. I understand this, and have made an effort of keeping it in private dms and this journal. Honestly, i do think this is better. I can just info dump on here, and no one is here to judge me. Its MY space on the web. Its FOR ME.

Yesterday, i was on call with my friends. One of them talked about how she got the other one a video from David Menkin (Ramon’s VA) for her birthday. I had the money, so i bought one for myself. It costed about 90$, and the request was for Ramon to say that he loves me.

When i tried to tell my other friend, she was shocked. She said 90$ was a ridiculous amount of money, and that i should’ve saved it.

Honestly? I think we should let people spend their money on whatever they want, unless it is for buying illegal content or stuff of that sort. Im nearly a grown man, so i know how to spend MY MONEY!