Im 17 now! Thats all! :3

It is December 28th, 2025.

It is a couple days after chrismas, a day where i mostly got beads.

It was a great day for me, but unknown to me my family betrayed me and my siblings.

On December 25th, my “dad“s side of the family invited my criminal “father”, who l’ll call Jack, to their chrismas party.

Jack is a sex offender. He is currently on trial for several crimes, including: Rape, Sexual assault, Child abuse, pedophilia and incest. I have no idea how the FUCK they thought it was wise to invite him to a family reunion. I have a cousin, whose 15, who attended this party.

HOW THE FUCK did her mom think it was okay to invite her to the same house as her daughter? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER?

Her mom is my godmother, and i was supposed to hang out with her the day before my 17th birthday. I was so happy to see her, but now i have her blocked as i cannot FUCKING comprehend how the fuck she thinks this is okay. I have seen the things Jack will do near girls who are under the age of 18.

I hope my cousin is safe. And i hope her mom wakes the fuck up and cuts contact with Jack.

Im sorry for the nature of this journal. I promise the next entry will be more light hearted, but i needed to rant about this. About what Jack has done to me, my sister and my brother. Jack will be put in prison, and we will get justice for the way the world has treated us. I want my siblings to live a normal life, one where we break the cycle of abuse that has been in my family for generations.

I dont remember most of december, to be frank.

I have been sick for 3/4 of this month with the flu. for the first week i was completely paralyzed. i couldn’t really move, it was horrific and i hated it. im still congested, but im better.

When im writing this, its chrismas eve. I feel nothing. I learnt that i might have BPD after several incidents of me splitting. However, due to me being a minor they cannot diagnose me with a personality disorder. I dont know why, i already have autism and other disorders that effects my personality on and off line. I have lost several friends because of me acting obsessive over rayman and others. In my case it would help to diagnose me, i have already have fucked up a lot due to ubdianosed mental disorders and learning disablites.

my mind plays many tricks on me, i hear voices, and see things. Im not sure how i got so fucked up, but i do know most of my actions are influenced by others. I used to do a lot of exterm stuff in hopes of getting attention, and i got the opposite.

So dont be like me kids. please go outside.

Im so hyperfixated on Club Penguin right now that im completely ignoring Rayman.

Rayman was my entier personality for most of my high school career, and now im left with clun penguin. I will still talk about it and make pages about it but im focused on club penguin. Theres a lot of things i wanna write about it, along with Rayman.. so l’ll try to have a balance.

Its near the end of November as i am writing this, and my mom started to buy presents in October.

“But Edge,” You might ask.. “Why is your mom buying presents in October?”

Well my family adores Christmas and other holidays that involve eating and giving. I believe the reason for this is due to my late Great Great Grandfather Emile, who was a WW2 vet who loved the holidays. I heard stories where he’d patiently wait for kids to stop showing up at his house for candy, and then put up the tree. Even after his wife died, for the last years of his life he would do it for his great grand children. I wish i got to meet him, rest in peace. (1910-1998)

My mom has always been like this, from as far back as i can remember. Back when Rainbow Rocks came out, she had bought the dolls the day they became available at our local Walmart. I’m not sure how she kept track of it, exactly. My mom is a women of many talents.

Now its been.. 12 years since that Christmas of 2013. Im not even in my 20s and yet i still feel old! Wow!

Anywho… heres my 2025 Christmas wants!

MY BIG GIFT!

My mom has a tradition of getting us a bunch of small gifts and one HUGE gift. This year i asked for a cricut iron.

A strange gift, yes. I also dont have a cricut machine, so whats the deal?

Well i heard from one of my favorite kandi creators, Mood Kandi, that they recommend a Cricut iron for perlers. Its more efficient than with an iron. Which i think is a fantastic idea! So i asked for it!

My mom has already bought my Christmas gift and im almost CERTAIN that what it is.

Baby Evie Peppa Pig Doll

… I like her. I saw the toy in the store and lost my mind. Shes so cute its crazy.

idk.

Thats basically it. I dont want much, as i want my mom to think ideas for christmas gifts.